I can do this

I think it isn't easy to walk forward without looking back. Somehow you'll always end up sneaking that glance backward. A glance enough to wrench one from the present into a world that was. I have taken steps forward, that I believe is true, yet I must admit i find no solace in the fixtures around me. Reality seems so dissociated from the present that my presence flickers.

Sometimes i believe i exist for days at an end without really being here... The human mind is a wondrous thing.

I have become adept to silencing my words. For i know if they are to be uttered, my mother will comment on the sarcasm. Sarcasm is not the greatest tool in my arsenal, mother. Knowledge is. Thus, I had corrected her.

The people here think I am arrogant. So completely obnoxious but I must remain conscious to my own actions. Perhaps it is true that I am quite pompous with my claims, only because I wish to remain the center of focus. It becomes unfair if I am unable to play the push and pull tug of war that i have become so adept at.