I don't know who's reading this, but at the moment, i don't for the life of me care. I wanted to say 'fuck' but, of course. Whatever. Stupid brain censor. This won't end up on the net anyway. God has some amazing stroke with luck that whenever i really do pour the depths of my heart, it never ends anywhere.

I'm stupid. I survived too long on my own, so strong on my own, or so i believe. Did you know i feel invincible now? I feel like i can't be hurt. But that's only on the outside. My inside burns. It's decaying. And still i try not to feel. It's stupid.

I call too many people. Turn to so many people for help. Bitch. I should face life on my own. But this is what happens to me. I die inside. I hate this.

It isn't a feeling of unworthiness but the feeling of absolute worthiness. Almost like i really deserve to be a part of human race. We know i don't. Humanity has never accepted me. I hate myself.

I should die.